Mental Math

written by: Julien Baker

Read it in a book once, don't remember where

If you're happy in a dream, it has to count for somethin'

Cursin' at the sun, you taught me not to swear

You ask if I get worse and I say, "Dammit, you can bet"

Hangin' on a ledge outside of your house

Tryin' not to freak out, starin' at the ground

Doing math in my head, how far is it down?

Not too good to beg for you to try to talk me down

You say you never had a good night's sleep

Any of the nights you spent with me

I ask if it'd be better when I leave and then regret it

Maybe if I were a little patient

But I never learned the virtue in waitin'

It's too late anyway, to take it back

'Cause I have a lot to say

And never in the right way

And if I could just explain myself again

Oh, if I could fix you first

Tell me about what hurts

And try not to make it worse than it already is

'Cause I have a lot to say

But never in the right way

And if I could just explain myself again