L.G. FUAD (Explicit)

Let's get ****** up and di

I'm speaking figuratively of course

Like the last time that

I committed suicide social suicide

Yeah so I'm already dead

On the inside

But I can still pretend with

My memories and photographs

I've learned to love the lie

I wanna know what it's like to

Be awkward and innocent

Not belligerent

I wanna know how it feels to

Be useful and pertinent

And have common sense yeah

Let me in let me in to the club

'Cause I wanna belong

And I need to get strong

And if memory serves

I'm addicted to words

And they're useless

Let's get ****** up and die

I'm riding hard on the

Last legs of every lie

And the BMX bike of my

Life is about to explode

I'm about to explode

I'm a mess I'm a wreck

I am perfect and

I have learned to accept

All my problems and short comings

Because I am so visceral

Yet deeply inept

I wanna thank you for being

A part of my the

Forget-me-nots and marigolds

And all the things

That don't get old

Is it legal to do this

I surely don't know

It's the only way

I have learned to express myself

Around other peoples'

Descriptions of life

I'm afraid I'm alone

And entirely useless

Let's the **** left

Let's get ****** up and die

For the last time I'm feeling

We'll try not to smile

As we cover our heads and

Drink heavily into the nights

That's no shocking surprise

I believe that I can overcome

This and beat everything in the end

But I choose to abuse for the time being

Maybe I'll win but for now

I've decided to die

Sister soldier

You've been such a positive

Influence on my mental frame

If I could ever repay you I would

But I'm hard up for cash

And my memory lacks initiative

God d**n the liquor stores' closed

We were so close to scoring

It hurts it destroys til it kills

I am tired and hungry and totally useless

In this department