A Place to Die

I can see the face of the ever clear

I see apparitions fly

Shadows falling in my peripheral

Turn to see them and they hide

Double vision and out of focus

Heat rising from deep within

I am dying inside from the thirst

Another drink to make things clear

I just need a place where I can die

A place where I can be who I see in my mind

Searching for a place where I can live

Live with my demons and the terror they can give

I can feel the pounding of the spinning earth

Voices whisper in my ear

Feels like my head may come apart

Blood is flowing from my ear

Operate with one eye open

Decisions not so clear

I can hear the call of the captain

Calming nerves and always there

I just need a place where I can die

A place where I can be who I see in my mind

Searching for a place where I can live

Live with my demons and the terror they can give

One shot two three shots more

One more for the road

Before I hit the door

One to hide the shame

One to heal the pain

Numbing all the choices I have made