Learning To Hate You As A Self Defense Mechanism

You're on the phone

With someone who doesn't know

About your soul and how it

Can't be held by flesh and bone

And I guess that's fine

I would never want you to

Stop your life

But when I saw you both

With your shoulders touching

Sitting so close

I knew I'd hold on to this feeling

I'd hold on to anything at all

Was it my fault

Because I easily confused you

For someone who would hold my hand

When things got hard

When things got dark

Because oh my god

When they get dark

They get so dark

You were always a s**tty friend

And you would leave when I got sick

You never called me on my birthday

I want to call you on your birthday

So I'll hold on to this feeling

I'll hold on to this hate

For as long as I need

For it to help me