Always December

Snow is falling it's middle July

雪花飘落 正值七月中旬

Just another day here in my mind

不过是意识中的寻常光景

Can't escape what's inside

无法逃脱内心的纠缠

I've been running my whole damn life

我耗尽一生仓皇逃离

Years go by but the colors won't change

岁月流逝却褪不去灰暗

Been so long since I've felt anything

麻木太久已遗忘何为情感

Feelings fading so fast

情绪如流沙般消散

Like I'm watching my own life through glass

像隔着玻璃旁观自己的人生

No one sees but it's always December in me

无人知晓 我内心永远是十二月

No matter where I go it's pouring rain

无论身在何处都大雨倾泻

In my head seasons never change

脑海中四季永恒冻结

And it's killing me

这正在将我毁灭

No one sees but it's always December in me

无人知晓 我内心永远是十二月

Tried so hard to be brave

竭力伪装勇敢

But the reasons this life is worth living

那些值得活下去的理由

Get hard to remember

逐渐变得模糊难辨

When it's always December

当永夜没有终点

Black and white only colors I see

黑白是视野仅存的颜色

Sunless sky somehow stuck on repeat

阴郁天空陷入无限循环

But I hold it all down

但我将一切深藏

Don't want anyone to feel this but me

不愿他人体会这种绝望

I'm only free from it when I'm asleep

唯有沉睡时能暂时逃亡

The more I think the more I feel myself sink

越是思考越是深陷泥潭

Back to this empty place

坠回这片虚无荒原

It's a nightmare I could never explain (never explain)

这是永远无法描述的梦魇

No one sees but it's always December in me

无人知晓 我内心永远是十二月

No matter where I go it's pouring rain

无论身在何处都大雨倾泻

In my head seasons never change

脑海中四季永恒冻结

And it's killing me

这正在将我毁灭

No one sees but it's always December in me

无人知晓 我内心永远是十二月

Tried so hard to be brave

竭力伪装勇敢

But the reasons this life is worth living

那些值得活下去的理由

Get hard to remember

逐渐变得模糊难辨

Can't outrun the cold

逃不出刺骨严寒

When it's in my head

当寒冷源于心间

In my head

在意识深渊

It's been getting old

这煎熬日益陈腐

Wishing I was dead

宁愿生命终结

I was dead

彻底湮灭

As this overcast suffocates me

当阴云扼住我的呼吸

I'm done waiting on some sign of spring

不再等待春天的踪迹

I would rather lay here in my bed

宁愿蜷缩在床榻之间

Than have to face what lives here in my head

也不愿直面脑海中的梦魇

Hell just being awake

清醒即是地狱

Hurts much more than I could ever explain

这种痛苦远超出我能描述的语言

No one sees but it's always December in me

无人知晓 我内心永远是十二月

No matter where I go it's pouring rain

无论身在何处都大雨倾泻

In my head seasons never change

脑海中四季永恒冻结

And it's killing me

这正在将我毁灭

No one sees but it's always December in me

无人知晓 我内心永远是十二月

Tried so hard to be brave

竭力伪装勇敢

But the reasons this life is worth living

那些值得活下去的理由

Get hard to remember

逐渐变得模糊难辨

When it's always December

当永夜没有终点