CONUNDRUM (Explicit)

Tell me what you gon' do

When the sky turns black

Tell me what you gon' do

When the sun don't shine

Tell me what you gon' do

When you can't go back

To the moment when

You see the stars intertwined

But the lights are dim

As your hands are shaking

While you're holding

A glass filled with Absinthe

'Cause you think you're absent

When your friends needed help

And you feel so distant

Cause you were never there

Still you wanted to leave

Cause you think you're toxic

Also you seemed manic

Verging on psychotic

Then you felt so panic

Cause the world's chaotic

It's very ironic

You turned into a narcotic

I'd pray under the mistletoe

In this status quo

To overthrow the

Overflowing of my demons

I wish I'm a Morgan

Then I go free man

But this beacon is beamin

I'm beaten and bleedin

Heavenly Father

Why are You so far away

Far away

Heavenly Father

Why are You so far away

Far away

Heavenly Father

Why are You so far away

Far away

Heavenly Father

Why are You so far away

Far away

Can anyone tell me

Where to find solitude

'Cause suffering multitude

Losses makes my mind screwed

Can anyone, please

Tell me where to find peace

When the pieces are puzzled

I'm scared to be deceased

I crave food for my thoughts

A feast for my soul

So I won't tie a noose knot

Until my eyes roll

Yes I've been ig'nant

These thoughts are malignant

Behind all forms of stigma

Causing to feel indignant

Yet the vision of wanting

To die is very resilient

Ain't that coherent to know

That millions of people be

Thinking the same thing

They barking the wrong tree

Telling the same deceit

Trusting the wrong soul

And killing the same shit

(Well, you know what I mean?)

Well, the question still remains

And I'm here to make amends

Am I taking Jesus' word if

I put the Bible on my hands

Even when I'm a heathen

My existential dread

Is something that I need

To overcome before I'm dead

And the tears that have been shed

Still lives on in every shred

Now my eyes are seeing red

Dead redemption on myself

My heaven is the present

So maybe this is it

Jumping off the window

To make me believe I exist

Heavenly Father

Why are you so far away

Far away

Heavenly Father

Why are You so far away

Far away

Heavenly Father

Why are You so far away

Far away

Heavenly Father

Why are You so far away

Far away