never growing up (Explicit)

saw myself fall

but I'm coming up

the wounds are still open

but they're covered up

keep my mind open never growing up

daddy said he's proud

then I f**ked it up

show me how to breathe

it's only been a while

since I suffocated drowning

from my own smile

fake it till I break

and I can't take no more

cant nobody blame me

I don't feel myself at all

I can't be who you want

but I'm gon'be who I am

and I want take it all back

just f**king tell me who will I be when I'm gone

saw myself fall

but I'm coming up

the wounds are still open

but they're covered up

keep my mind open never growing up

daddy said he's proud

then I f**ked it up

take me to the moon

teach me how to fly

pull the rug from under me

before I get too high

feels like a restrain pressing on my brain

why won't anybody come relieve me from my pain

I can't be who you want

but I'm gon'be who I am

and I want take it all back

just f**king tell me who will I be when I'm gone

who will I be when I'm gone

hate me

anticipate me

take me

all when I'm gone