Hard Not to Hold You

It's hard to say that I've forgotten how to disappear

I'll hide from my thoughts in the hope that beauty fades

Am I enough

I'm scared of everything that shouldn't be

Should I change myself enough

So you stop wanting to know me

It's hard not to hold you and I'm sad to say

That I can't console you when there's nothing to face

Oh I'd like to know you when you've finished your thoughts

It's not easy feeling helpless

Oh I'd like to hold you

So I'll feign a smile and bury everything I think

Just tell me who I've to lie to

I know it's hard

More tainted nights

They come and then they go

But I just want to know where to stand

It's hard not to hold you