Scared of Myself (Explicit)

Scared of Myself - Alexander Stewart

Lyrics by：Alexander Stewart/Whakaio Taahi/Rollo

Composed by：Alexander Stewart/Whakaio Taahi/Rollo

You're not good enough life's not fair

If you die no one would care

When I was thirteen

I started gaining weight

So I started counting calories sometimes

When I was sixteen

Someone told me I was stupid

So I bit my tongue let others speak their minds

Now I hear voices late at night

And honestly I'm terrified

That I'm never gonna be the same

Some people are scared of heights

And monsters coming out at night

But I'm afraid of somethin' I can't change

I'm scared of myself

If you asked me the truth I'm not doing well

I'm afraid for my life

I'm at war with my mind and nobody can help

My thoughts go "You're not good enough life's not fair

If you die no one would care"

Oh I've lost control

I'm scared of myself

If you asked me the truth I'm not doing well

I'm not doing well

When I was nineteen

Someone stole my innocence

And the first thing that I did was blame myself

Now in my twenties

And I still feel like a kid

Tryna work through all that **** but God it's heavy

Now I hear voices late at night

And honestly I'm terrified

That I'm never gonna be the same

Some people are scared of heights

And monsters coming out at night

But I'm afraid of somethin' I can't change

I'm scared of myself

If you asked me the truth I'm not doing well

I'm afraid for my life

I'm at war with my mind and nobody can help

My thoughts go "You're not good enough life's not fair

If you die no one would care"

Oh I've lost control

I'm scared of myself

If you asked me the truth I'm not doing well

I'm not doing well

You're not good enough life's not fair

If you die no one would care

Oh I've lost control