I'm Not Okay

I'm Not Okay - Citizen Soldier

Lyrics by：Jake Segura/Juan Rivero

Composed by：Jake Segura/Juan Rivero

Tonight the monsters

In my head

Are screaming so

D**n loud

But I built walls

So high

So they never even

Make a sound

It's a mask

It's a lie

It's the only home

I've ever known

'Cause being who

I really am

Has only left me

More alone

I am not okay

And I need you

To see it

I have so much

To say

And no one

To hear it

The reason

I keep quiet

With so much at stake

I always feel like

A burden let it

Silence me

You'll never understand

Why it's so hard to say

I'm not okay

I wish I had a scar

Had a bruise on

The surface any

Kind of proof

That everything

I feel is more than

Just some sad excuse

My life's invisible abuse

I'm either judged

Or have to hide

The only symptom

You can see

Is I don't wanna

Be alive

I am not okay

And I need you

To see it

I have so much

To say

And no one

To hear it

The reason I keep quiet

With so much at stake

I always feel like

A burden let it

Silence me

You'll never understand

Why it's so hard

To say

I'll never have

The words I can't

Explain this hell

But what if it kills me

If I keep it to myself

To myself

I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

I'm not okay

I'm not okay

I'm never safe

It's not a phase

If I finally break

Would you still stay

Tonight the monsters

In my head

Are screaming so

D**n loud