I Hate Myself (Explicit) Lyrics
Don't want the world to see me
Don't think that they'd understand
Everything's meant to be broken
Want you to know who I am
I see myself in the mirror but I don't see nothing
If you understand what I'm seeing please tell me something
When you black the media make you wonder why
I need to learn
My lifetime came from struggle
All I've seen is what I follow
My skin color automatic transaction
I'm already classified no second chance
Taught to feel nappy hands little grade
Why can't I sag when it's just a style
Grown beard black hoodie and I'm all good
People judge before they even know me
Stare at me don't know I'm lonely
Outside's front these stares from police
And I get the bad rap because another man that just looks like me
Think life's a movie like Spike Lee
Too cool like Ice T
Yeah I move with Life's Peace and he move with the gun piece
So there's no peace
I gotta go to the hood all I see is
Divided the freshest schizophrenics
Men pimping women people losing vision
Given choices before she started living
I hate myself
Don't want the world to see me
Don't think that they'd understand
Everything's meant to be broken
Want you to know who I am
I see myself in the mirror but I don't see nothing
If you understand what I'm seeing please tell me something
When you black the media make you wonder why
I just need my history because I hate myself
It makes me sad to see pimping like I'm at a battle with my surroundings
Everybody do it but not really
And I couldn't imagine my momma
Universal knowledge is karma
I see young girls hanging off the corner
And they searching for love in the wrong space
Gave her mind to a pimp now he's changing faces
Sometimes I just wish I could trade places
I hate myself for being taught the roots of the hood
Which don't matter no respect and no love
That got jailed for the real thugs
And I'm sorry to all the innocent in prison
You get a second chance when you free or in heaven
I promise if you really love and you watch your steps
Respect everybody man you will get blessed
Get your point across without violence
The black dying by the gun I'm tired of crying
I hate myself
Don't want the world to see me
Don't think that they'd understand
Everything's meant to be broken
Want you to know who I am
I'm ready to give up my old thoughts
I'ma move past what I saw
I'ma do what I want and be happy
I'm not gon' rob or kill to survive
Everything I've seen was a lie
I'm not ready to die I love myself
I said
Everything that I've seen was a lie
I'm not ready to die I love myself
Break that mental
You know we are free now man
Break that uh mental blockage
Don't think too hard free your mind
That's real life man
I just you know speak for real
Sh*t that really feel real sh*t man you know
We all human we all got questions
You know I'm designed this way and I got questions
It's all love over here you feel me
Like I said man just livin'
Yeah but then I hear me tho'
I said I'm ready to give up my old thoughts
I'ma move past what I saw
I'ma do what I want to be happy
I'm not gon' rob or kill to survive
Everything I've seen was a lie
I'm not ready to die I love myself
But I don't see nothin'
If you hear what I'm sayin' please tell me somethin'
When you- the media make you wonder why
I need to learn my history because I hate myself