Darkness in My Soul (S.O.R.W.T.B) (Explicit) (S.O.R.W.T.B|Explicit)

Like why my life had to be so ****ed up tho

Like I ain't ask for this s**t

Darkness in my soul

I swear I coulda died

Off a bag xanny's

Almost like I tried

Suicide had me

If you ain't down to ride

Why you holla at me

Iss darkness in my soul

Need the light to find me

It was me all alone 10 months

In da telly

Then me all alone for 10 months

A cell

If dem walls could talk

Dey words would take you to hell

Almost lined out in chalk

Is how I ended the spell

Took a bat to the dome

Besides the knife to my head

&like zombie I walked

I swear they thought I was dead

I seen the light in the tunnel

Like I could end all my stress

But when I got to the end

My daughter my reached for my hand

Like daddy I really need you

You promised me you'd be there

So How I could say no

When Really she's all I have

She musta woken my soul

I guess it must have flew back

Like I don't know how this works

Like is a God really there

Like all my prayers

Ain't answered

But yet I'm here in the flesh

Livin &breathin when really

I could be ashes to spread

I guess my purpose iz bigger

But they just don't understand

So I just light up a blunt

&blow da smoke in da air

I swear I coulda died

Off a bag xanny's

Almost like I tried

Suicide had me

If you ain't down to ride

Why you holla at me

Iss darkness in my soul

Need the light to find me

I must have looked for answers

In all the wrong places

But dat ain't no excuse

For my bad behavior

Knucklehead since a youth

I ain't never listened

That's why the booth

N this music has always been a blessin

The nightmares got me paralyzed

I feel the chokin

Like dem demons

Got a grip on me

I just can't fight em

I can't re write my life

The scar is on my face prove it

But the hardest ones I got

Is all beneath the surface

Who can I trust

When those that's closest to me

See me hurtin

But they just can relate

So they just think I really lost it

Can I avoid another tragic ending

What's the process

Cuz at this point

I'm sick errybody

I don't want this

All I know is my reality is pain

Even through the sunniest &darkest days

I just wanna sprinkle of dat life they have

I don't wanna sell my soul for none of this

I swear I coulda died

Off a bag xanny's

Almost like I tried

Suicide had me

If you ain't down to ride

Why you holla at me

Iss darkness in my soul

Need the light to find me