Me, Museum (Explicit)

作曲 : Mary Lambert

作詞 : Mary Lambert

My mother found a rabid dog

And wanted to hug it

Wanted to give it all her glorious honey love

Wanted to bathe her children in a two-parent household

But, the dog didn't want kids

The dog would scream it in the hallway at four A.M

Reminding us as often as possible

The sheer art of it

How the monster could panic into my body

Sometimes I still hear it in the chambers of my heart

The way some glorious paintings stay with you

I am a museum

I must be a museum

When I was seven, the dog told me I was going to be a slut

No one came over to our house to play

The dog made me write, "I will flush the bathroom toilet seventy-five times"

I would've remembered to flush the toilet

But, I started blacking out around then

Forgetting basic things

I took snapshots with my memory camera

Hoping there would be justice for this kind of psycho warfare

The teachers at the daycare offered apology eyes and extra sequins

For the art project

The day after, the dog chased me around each room

Because I forgot where my other shoe was

When you are a child

And your mind is panicked like a fire alarm at all times

You lose the ability to remember simple things

I haven't lost a personal item in months

Do not laugh when I say, 'This is a victory'

Shame is an ocean I swim across

Sometimes, I call it drowning

Sometimes, I call it Moses

Sometimes, I say, "Good morning!" and sway to its murky surge

Sometimes, I win and cut off its crest with a pink machete

Sometimes, I want to **** it and

Marry it and kill it all at the same time

Sometimes, I spend my whole day apologizing on shame's behalf

Sometimes, I think it must be an art form to feel this bad

Sometimes, I outrun all of its psycho history

Other times, I repeat the language from my childmouth

While beating my head against a wall

But all the time I am forgiven