X Telling Me About the Loss of Something Dear, at Age 16

X Telling Me About the Loss of Something Dear, at Age 16 - Hello Saferide

I looked up at the ceiling the entire time

Well it didn't last for long

Like 15 minutes or so

They had said it would hurt

But it didn't

His face all grumped up

Veins were showing on his forehead

Closed my eyes and thought of dancers

Closed my eyes and thought of dancers

I thought of what my friends would say

I thought of how my life would change

I just laid real still there on the bed

Afterwards I said

Like I hear you're supposed to:

Was it good for you as well”

He was proud said: “

Ok we can do it again

But maybe this time

You can do it better than this

You can do it better than this ”

You can do it better than this

I kuow You can do it better than this

I faked to come

Because I hear you're supposed to

There was obviously something wrong

With me and I didn't want him to know

I was afraid he'd have

A heartattack and die

I went to work at the shoestore

And waved him goodbye

I felt sad but I didn't know why

Do you want those in red I said

250 with laces I said

Years later

I can still vision that forehead