I Wish I Knew (Explicit)

I Wish I Knew (Explicit) - Joyner Lucas

Composed by：Joyner Lucas

Produced by：ADHD Productions/Leo Son/KXVI/Clay H/Josie Jack

Nephew it's your uncle Snoop Dogg

I need you to show these *********** how it's done loco

Show these ***** niggas what this ADHD 2 **** is all about

You understand me?

Show these *********** Joyner

What you playin' for?

Let's go

Ain't no medicine could save me nigga

I'm too far gone my brain too ******

I'm comin' like woah

No turnin' back gotta get to where I'm goin'

My ADHD keep jumpin' like woah

**** that I lived they'll never understand

You could never be me we ain't nothin' alike woah

Came a long way from the bottomless pit

Now look at me ***** I'm stuntin' like woah

Got a lil' ***** nigga sidewalk

I'd probably go to jail 'fore I ever be a coward

I'd probably be dead 'fore I ever get flowers

I might take that 'fore I ever be honored

And try to be somethin' that the industry proud of

But niggas wasn't givin' me nada

Another blick on me if you ever need drama

No vest on me like I never seen karma

Woah

The way I was raised I knew I'd forever be a problem

Never got the love that I needed at home

I was misunderstood **** turned me to a monster Yeah

Dad always lettin' me down

But my step-pops raised me and showed me I never need to bother Ayy

Now a nigga rich so it'll be a cold day in Hell

'Fore this ***** nigga ever get a dollar Wow

And I ain't got love for nobody give a **** about me

I'm a self-made nigga you ain't nothin' without me

Ain't too many *********** I trust around me

I done been through the storm ain't nothin' I ain't seen

Lot of niggas thought I'd give up but not me

Told a nigga "You swing one duck and I weave"

When my homies drink with a cup of Ali

And my ***** gotta ride 'til the wheels fall off

I **** a bad ***** 'til her heels fall off

You a dog I'll get your whole tail sawed off

And your head chopped off I'm a real lost cause

I'm real ****** up I'm still caught off

Ain't no pellet gun this a real sawed-off

****** wait for a nigga tryna pop somethin' off

Hit a nigga in the back that's a real raw dog

Like pause

Nigga still showin' off

Too much time on your hands 'til your hands blowin' off

I got money in the bank got deals goin' off

I could sell my catalog but I'm still holdin' off

Got crackers pullin' on me and they still holdin' on

Lot of niggas did me dirty and they still wanna bond

Give my hand to a nigga and he still want an arm

Wanna write diss tracks but he still want a song

What the ****?

Look I ain't ever sleepin' relievin' the pressure Joyner

Came from the bottom where we can see a homicide like every week

Keep the heat up under the dresser

Thinkin' one day I'ma see better hate the poverty

The fact I'll one who'll never settle

When I grow up then I'm hopin' I'm never seen in a stretcher

Mama workin' nine-to-five she was tryna keep it together

If I ever make it I want a chance to make a difference

And forget it and take all the problems that we were livin' in

And then throw it all the way so we never live in this **** again

Then maybe then niggas would never tell me I need the Ritalin

Or medicine or anything that will make me upset again

Or put me in school with the troublemakers and trippin'

Always thought **** again tryna bully me 'cause I'm different

And my ADHD got 'em thinkin' that I was livin' in my head again

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