The Longing Deep Down (abdominal portal) (Explicit)

Esperanza Spalding - The Longing Deep Down

Belonging deep down inside is longing

Is longing

Is longing

Is to be

I too would rather run bound cactus head to cactus head

Stimulating laps flung wide the distance well rounded

A working circle

All of our adjacent points equally distant from

The center

Fulcrum self it's fruit and its pit so deep

The whole current of being rises through it

There between your crotch and belly button

Lonely river bottom

Longing to be entertained

Stimulating laps flung wide

Wait wait

Before you run cactus

Wait wait wait

Just say say

Please with your deep dimension close

Say which is worse the longing to arrive there

Or the terror of approach

But maybe someday try

Mid-slosh through intermittent voids

Try standing long enough to toe the still beneath

And dare an inward leap

Cupping your feet around that looming orb below

Glowing with the shape of real things standed

Other murky stones enlighten too to guide you

No we can't say home

For deep down there is no promise

Only longing but deep down the

Longing promises to be your own

Longing deep down inside

If longing

If longing

If longing

Is to be

Longing deep down inside

Is f**king hard

It's f**king hard

It's f**king hard

To be longing

Deep down inside

Is longing

Is longing

Is longing

Is to be

Longing deep down inside is

F**king hard

It's f**king hard

It's f**king hard

To be

It is f**king hard to be longing

And at the same time feel your own belonging

Where it's real

Deep down

Deep down

Deep

Down

Deep down

Deep down