Eminem Speaks (Explicit)

Eminem Speaks (Explicit) - Juice WRLD

Lyrics by：Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers

Composed by：Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers

Eminem：

I think once I took my first Vicodin

It was just like

This feeling of "Ahh"

You know

Like everything was not only mellow

But didn't feel any pain

It just didn't

It just kind of numbed things

I don't know at what point exactly it started to be a problem

I just remember likin' it more and more

People try to tell me that I had a problem

I would say

"Get that f**kin' person out of here

I can't believe they said that s**t to me

They know nothin' about my f**kin' life

Are they out of their f**kin' mind"

I'm not out there shootin' h****n

I'm not out there f**kin'

You know

Puttin' coke up my nose

I'm not smokin' crack

You're struggling with the argument of "Do you have a problem

Or do you not have a problem

Can you control it

Or can you not"

And I literally thought I could control it

You're taking things that people are giving you that

You don't even know what the f**k they are

They look like a pill

And they look they're shaped like something that you take

So you take it

You know

Xanax

Valium

Tomato-tomato

You know what I mean

It's th-the same thing

It's all in the same family

F**k it

Take it

Had I had gotten to the hospital about two hours later

I would've died

My organs were shutting down

My liver kidneys everything

They were gonna have to put me on dialysis

They didn't think I was gonna make it

My bottom was gonna be death

Within a month

I had relapsed

And shot right back up to the same amount of pills that I was taking

I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day

Like "I'm gonna f**king die"

Like I'm I'm looking at my kids

And I need to be here for this

Coming off of everything

I literally was up twenty-four hours a day for three weeks straight

And I mean not sleeping

Not even nodding off for a f**king minute

Like I was literally just up

Like looking at the TV

I had to regain motor skills

I had to regain talking skills

It's been a-a learning process

Like It's been I'm growing

I just couldn't believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy

Or naturally function

Or be just enjoying life in general

Without being on something

So I would say that t-to anybody that i-it does get better

You know

It just it does