The Shepherd (Explicit)

I'm gonna lay back down before I get carried away

Waking up in bed the same old muthafuking way

I'd like to think it's soon that you'll be walking through my door

I guess I don't know a god damn thing, anymore

You used to lay beside me, I could hear you softly snore

And the place you used to lie is now a picture I ignore

To keep me safe and far away from demons after me

I guess I'm just trying to keep myself clean

The story bleeds and we follow like helpless herded sheeps

But I'll keep my head up that's the Shepard in me

Refusing to believe that you were just another drink

And now I'll fall asleep, in my quarantine

Come here darling, laugh with me

I can feel your body's cold

There's a car that's rolling down the street

Warning me I'm getting old

I've learned to walk a different pace

New routes I'd never earned

Just to keep my head from falling off

Just to keep me from concern

There's a voice and it's a pretty voice

That keeps me waking up

Runs the shower water over me

Pours the coffee in my cup

But each day as it fades away

And my hair slightly grows

I wonder if I'll ever see

Just how our story goes

You call me up to cheer me up

But my body's grown immune

To the face I never touched enough

To the heart I never knew

My mama used to say to me, a reason lies inside

Well if there's a reason behind all of this

Well then I've lost my faith in life

I'm gonna lay back down before I get carried away

Waking up in bed the same old muthafuking way

I'd like to think it's soon that you'll be walking through my door

I guess I just don't know a god damn thing...