well known (Explicit)

I don't wanna be well known

Just wanna be known well

I'd rather be lonely than be by myself

Don't wanna go home

Or put my pride on the shelf

Cause I don't need help from anyone else

And I've been feeling so low

Help me back into character I was

Reckless kid born and raised in America

Now I'm a lost cause and truth be told

I lie too much my bad

Trust me I'm working on it

I thought I'd die young

Likes didn't do s**t

I know well being well known's useless

I'll go to hell too eager to care

I'm on a screen island where no one stares

I wanna find whats inside me

Feel every fiber

Done sucking up cause I'm no longer a liar

Don't know how to be myself sometimes

But whenever I need your help

I always tell you now

I know now it was all costumes

Funny dances to play my mind

Now I need to believe it

And I won't hold onto something familiar

We were kept back from the people we really were

It's a start

I just hope I acknowledge the gifts from the past

When we run out of time

I just wanna be known well

Not well known

I'd rather be lonely than be alone

I'd rather sleep in a hotel than sleep in my home

But I've been pulling my weight in my thoughts

No matter where I go

I've been feeling so low

Help me back into character I was

Reckless kid born and raised in America

Now I'm a lost cause and truth be told

I lie too much my bad

I've got a star studded cast of friends

That never answer the phone no matter when I call

Gotta stop trying so hard to try so hard

Otherwise I'll have nobody at all

I'm still learning to be direct

Cause for years I've been a mess

In '18 I changed address

Not the right one but the best

Cause my parents are my success

I still need to earn their respect

I'm just trying to figure it out

There's probably a lot that

I should've done differently

And I oh I went to hear it out

But I was never listening

I knew that it's not alright

Just trying to find the light

Summon another spark

Or maybe it's gone and died

I try to stay out of sight

I gotta leave by the night

I can't seem to clear my mind

But I know now that it was all

A bad dream crash scene playing in my mind

And I shouldn't believe it so I

Can't hold onto something familiar

When I've lost sight of the people we really were at the start

And I've started to see it 'cause

I don't wanna be well known

I don't wanna be well known

I don't wanna be well known

Just wanna be known well

I'd rather be lonely than be by myself

Don't wanna go home or

Put my pride on the shelf

Cause I don't need help from anyone else