Father

Father - Trik Turner

Can you remember

How you use to jab your fingers

Into my chest

And tell me how stupid you thought

I was

And how I'd grow up to be worthless

I was only 9 and I can recall

Every single time

You raised your hand to me

No matter how hard I try to forget

I can't erase it from my memory

To this day you seem to think that

You never did anything wrong

And even though I've tried to look past your

Ignorance

The hate was too strong

And you were to blind to see

How much anger

Was growing inside of me

And everything revolved around you

Do what you say

Do what you want

Do as you do

As the years passed

I never knew what was to come

Cause you were never there

But the day will come

When we'll cross paths

This time I'll be there to

Let you know that

All I ever wanted was was for you

To believe in me

And everyday I prayed for

Lived the day for

Was a chance to throw it back in your face

And before you die

Open your eyes

And see all the different ways

That you neglected me

You may have gave me life

But you never gave me hope

I don't ever want to

Take after my own Father

God help me raise up outta this mess

Stress and grey days

And a gang full of tests

God help me

God help me

You put the fear in me and said

If I wasn't to be everything you expected

Then a son I'm not in your eye's

And would be instantly rejected

Your gifts of love were just fifths of pain

While I tried to maintain and refrain

You just laughed at me

You looked down on me

You threw down on me

You made me feel worthless now

You're dead to me

How does it feel to be

What runs through you created me

One day I'll break free

All I ever wanted was for you

To believe in me

And everyday I prayed for

Lived the day for

Was a chance to throw it back in your face

Why do I have to feel like

I'm constantly worthless

Every day I'm reminded of you

Father