Had It Made

I made a mistake because I always had it made

Because I did not appreciate the things you did

I've spend a lot of time on it and I think I wanted just a lonely life

I can't believe how long it took just to understand the extent of all the things I wasn't doing right

I wanna know if I was ever happy at all

Because right now I don't know I can't remember

Now I've spent a lot of time on it

And I don't want to lead a lonely life

I spent the time and still I don't even understand

I wanna wake up in the morning and just feel alright

And I believe that it's true that I just blamed it all all on you

My only defense I was so depressed and man I was so dumb

My dreams came true and I always thought that the parts that needed you

Would be filled when all these things came true I did

I was wrong

OOOHHH

And now I never wanted to live this long without