Like Toy Soldiers

Like Toy Soldiers - Graham Blvd.

Step by step heart to heart left right left

We all fall down

Step by step heart to heart left right left

We all fall down like toy soldiers

Bit by bit torn apart

We never win but the battle wages on for toy soldiers

I'm suppose to be the soldier who never blows his composure

Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders

I ain't never suppose to show it my crew ain't suppose to know it

Even if it means going toe to toe with the Benzino it don't matter

I never drag 'em in battles that I can handle less I absolutely have to

I'm suppose to set an example I need to be the leader

My crew looks for me to guide 'em

If some sh*t ever just pop off I'm suppose to be beside 'em

That Ja sh*t I tried to squashed it it was too late to stop it

There's a certain line you just don't cross it and he crossed it

I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it

It was crazy this sh*t went way beyond some Jay Z and Nas sh*t

And even though the battle was won I feel like we lost it

I spent so much energy on it honestly I'm exhausted

I'm so caught it I almost feel like I'm the one who caused it

This ain't what I'm in Hip Hop for it's not why I got in it

That was never my object for someone to get killed

Why would I want to destroy something I helped build

It wasn't my intentions my intentions were good

I went through my whole career with out ever mentioning

And that's just outta respect for not running my mouth

And talking about something that I knew nothing about

Plus Dre told me stay out just wasn't my beef so I did

I just fell back watched and gritted my teeth while he's all over TV

Now I'm talking a man who literally saved my life like f**k it

I understand this is business and this sh*t just isn't none of my business

But still knowing this sh*t could pop off at any minute cause

Step by step heart to heart left right left

We all fall down like toy soldiers

Bit by bit torn apart

We never win but the battle wages on for toy soldiers

It used to be a time when you could just say a rhyme

And wouldn't have to worry about one of your people dying

But now it's elevated cause once you put someone's kids in it

Sh*t gets escalated it ain't just words no more is it

It's a different ball game call names and you ain't just rapping

We actually tried to stop the 50 and Ja beef from happening

Me and Dre had sat with him kicked it and had a chat with him

And asked him not to start it he wasn't gonna go after him

Until Ja' start yappin' in magazines how he stabbed him

F**k 'em 50 smash him mash him and let him have it

Meanwhile my intentions pulled me in other directions

Some receptionist said the source who answers phones at his desk

Has an erection for me and thinks

That I'll be his resurrection

Tries to blow the dust of his mic and make a new record

But now he's f**ked the game up cause one of the ways I came up

Was through that publication the same one that made me famous

Now the owner of it got a grudge against me for nothing but f**k it

That motherf**ker can get it too f**k 'em then

But I'm so busy being pissed off I don't stop to think

That we just inherited 50's beef with Murder Inc

And he's inherited mine which is fine ain't like either of us mind

We still have soldiers that's on the front line that's willing to die for us

As soon as we give the orders never to extort us

Strictly to show they support us

Maybe shout 'em out in a rap

Or up in a chorus to show we love 'em back

And to let 'em know

How important it is to have Runyon Avenue soldiers up in our corners

Their loyalty to us is worth more then any award is

But I ain't trying to have none of my people hurt or murdered

It ain't worth it I can't think of a perfecter way to word it

Then to just say that I love y'all too much to see the verdict

I'll walk away from it all before I'll let it go any further

But don't get it twisted it's not a plea that I'm coping

I'm just willing to be the bigger man

If y'all can quit popping off at the jaws with the knocking

'Cause frankly I'm sick of talking

I'm not gonna let someone else's coffin rest on my conscience 'cause

Step by step heart to heart left right left

We all fall down like toy soldiers

Bit by bit torn apart

We never win but the battle wages on for toy soldiers