Dear Diary

Yeah dear diary what a day that it's been

I thought about my life I just don't know where to begin

Felt a lot of pain and strain its hard not to sin

That's the sacrificies and prices you pay just to win

Yeah see all this pressure man It's building up

I feel the panic and doubt if I don't give enough

But what's enough man Because there ain't no written rule

I feel I'm on the brink of something man it's like a pinnacle

Yeah feel like my past was a preparation

All them playground fights they're gonna see their making

And all these late nights finally gonna see their waking

Ever wanted something so bad you just end up shaking

Yeah I swear down I put my life in this

So many night I cried just to try write like this

I felt my vibe had died had to reignite the switch

I had to ride the vibe just to rewrite the script

And now I'm finally feeling like I've been resurected

I spent too long trying to be somebody they expected

Don't chase anothers dream for your own to be neglected

Gotta believe to achieve that's the best perspective

My whole life man my family's been tragedy

And it's a fallacy that everybody's mad at me

I'm paranoid and sometimes yeah I'm glad to be

Cuz' when somebody let's me down at least I feel no blasphemy

And I always have the greatest intentions

Sometimes when I lie I'm in need of attention

I'm sorry that I missed your birthday

But I been in the studio making beats since last Thursday

How my brother man he just had a kid

It's the greatest gift they call me Uncle Big

But since her birth man I've only seen her twice

And it's trife I swear down I'mma make it right on my life

But this music man it's all that I'll ever be

And all this hate is a waste of my energy

I think it's time that I face all my enemies

I promise being honest is the base of the remedy

Yeah and I swear to my mother man I wish I was home just like my sister and brother

And God knows the truth is I miss and I love her

Next time man I'm home I'mma kiss her and hug her

Dear Heath first of all know I'm listening it feels so good to see you finally glistening

Twenty two years of hard work we been witnessing

It's too bad you missed your own neice's christening

And it goes without saying I love your workrate

If there's a competition or race you're first place

The difference between working hard and huslting is when you're huslting man it's more than putting muscle in

And I know you're finding it hard with all your family

And deep down everybody has agony

But you keep it honest all throughout the tragedy and people look to you for faith cuz' you take it casually

But sometimes man you gotta know to let it rain

I feel your pain everyday when you write a page and times change but I'll alway be the ****ing same

Your biggest fan everytime when you touch a stage

And you're the most honest rapper undoubtedly

So I'mma shout into the clouds into the mountain peaks

The whole world knows exactly what you're bound to be

So just belive my g cuz' you're about to see

And these kids need something to belive in rappers these days ain't nothing but misleading

It's crazy to think of the thing you're finally achieving five years ago nobody was believing

But I know sometimes you find it hard to always take the stress

Satan only picks the strongest that's what makes you best

Life's a test I know it's hard to manifest but try take it as a bless and nothing less

So stay strong my g through all the fear and pain

A lot of rappers come and go but you're here to stay

I never hide but you know your face clear as day

The real talk of mothers love never goes away