Hope (Explicit)

Tortured soul

Nobody caught on though

Don't wanna be caught on road

They just jump in the ford and go

But I'm out here in the warm and cold

Some man wanna talk and pose

But duck when it all explodes

I'm all alone forced to grow

Look I just need to afford to cope

You judge me its all a joke

You do coke on Friday night

Just like me but I bought to smoke

I sort of know I need to chill

Stop shotting illegal pills

My fam I should see them still

But its been so long I don't need the guilt

Am I even real

Some days I don't even feel

I ain't had a decent bed

I ain't had a decent meal

You're knee deep in the bills

But you're going sleep with a quilt

We need to be reaching a deal

Come on it's only a quid

If only it was only this

I might have chose to quit

But I might die from the loneliness

I talk to myself alot they pass me by I won't insist

I know you don't owe me s**t

But why act like I don't exist

Leave me alone

Why you so needy and broke

I can't believe your tone

Your mistakes me to atone

I should correct your life

I should protect your wife

I should defend your crime

Hide the d**gs that affect your mind

I bet you're fine

I bet your pockets are filled up

And you want me to empty mine

I bet its all fake aswell

Well that's what I say to myself

How can I have so many options

But for you it's grave or jail

Am I even real

Some days I don't even feel

I got a decent bed

I had a decent meal

Yeah I'm knee deep in the bills

So I take sleeping pills

But at least I'm going sleep with a quilt

At least it was only this

Or I might've chose to quit

Some die from the loneliness

I talk to myself alot we don't get along

I'm prone to flip and I won't insist

I know you don't owe me s**t

But please act like I don't exist

There's no trust I'm closed up show love

Don't get your hopes up

You know what roll up sober

Don't get your hopes up