Shadowboxing

Shadowboxing - Julien Baker

Written by：Julien Baker

Born cutting teeth on the curb

Summoning ghosts up from the concrete

Keep me company while I learn shadowboxing with giants that grew from our feet

I know that you don't understand

Cause you don't believe what you don't see

When you watch me throwing punches at the devil

It just looks like I'm fighting with me

There's a comfort in failure singing to loud in church

Screaming my fears into speakers

Till I collapse or I burst

Whichever comes first

I know you were trying to help

But you're only making it worse

Tell me that I shouldn't blame myself

You can't even imagine how badly it hurts just to think sometimes

How I think almost all the time

So break me down folded over your arms

Like an unloaded shotgun

Dismantled and harmless

Even you couldn't manage to pull the fuse from the back of my head

When you tell me you love me

Tell me you loved me

I wanted so bad to believe you

So tell me you love me tell me you loved me

I wanted so bad

I wanted so bad to believe you