Imagine If

Imagine If - Johnny Gallagher

Every stitch of clothing every strand of hair

My skin and bones my toe and finger nails

All my vital organs

Appendages and such

I'm not sure

Every word

I say even the promises

Ever tear and every laugh and every kiss

The good dreams and the bad dreams

The whispers and the screams

I'm not sure

I doubt everything about me

Choices all around me but which one is mine

I never thought that

I would be so hard to find

I've looked in every mirrors

The picture from the past

I'm not there

I've never been decisive but this takes the cake

An existential nervousness that

I can't shake

I used to be so different once

I trusted and once

I just played

And I can't be too sure just when it was that

I changed

I can't look at anything

Without seeing a million different ways it could be

Including me