Drama (Explicit)

Like man was saying bruv

Many nights man prayed bruv

Somewhere someone's gonna help me through this man

Someone is gonna help bring me out of this s**t y'know

Time it took a while for man to recognise

Boy who you were gonna send

And you know what mans I'm very proud

I'm very happy to see it's one of my own init y'know

And boy I know none of this is easy y'know

I'm just proud to be

To be witnessing what's going on man y'know

Look

I don't know where to start

But I just done my first psychodrama

And I hope the world hears my craft

I'm excited man I pray you get to hear my craft

From our childhood our mother didn't hear me laugh

I'm presenting you the future I don't fear my past

I ain't got a tattoo anywhere near my arms

But best believe on my sleeves is where I wear my heart

Do you know how easy it is to be a sinner

How many losses you need before you can be a winner

Reason with a criminal that needs to eat a dinner

Is it survival of the fittest or is he a killer

Losing dad was big losing you was even bigger

Never had a father and I needed you to be the figure

We're forgetting that we had a brother that was even bigger

We were figures just tryna figure out who could be a figure

My brothers never spoke to each other when I was growing up

I remember tryna to build a bridge I wasn't old enough

I pray I hold the game for as long as you man can hold a grudge

Years went by I know it's ****ed

I had to hold it up for mummy on my own

I know it's tough I got the coldest blood

I remember when you got sentenced and I was throwing up

It's like they took a piece of my freedom when I had opened up

I just lost the only ****ing person that I idolised

For my entire life I copied you down to the finest line

Bro I got a flame in my mind I'm trying to firefight

The pill I had to swallow wasn't bitter it was cyanide

I learn over time separation issues I describe

Are probably the reasons that I struggle feeling anything

I ain't got a vision of a marriage or a wedding ring

It's world domination in music or it ain't anything

I'm obsessed focused on the objective

Tell a don yes disagree I object

Used to treat my women like an object

Girls want a monster come and see I'm the loch ness

Settle for a lot less

I just hope you're proud of me brother

It's been a long stretch

You're my hero and prior to this

I was living on the edge like a house on a cliff

But now I'm living in the present like my house was a gift

I'm going psycho this scene's mine bro

Rappers wanna diss me it's only online though

They put the mic and soft in the micro

Soft not I bro

Swimming's the only time I can lie though

And lemme be genuine

Anybody rich my age is american kicking ball or inherited

It only makes sense I'm independent knowing

Everything it happened how I'm telling it

You n***as aren't getting it

I'm coming from the struggle I survived and I'm still here

Used to bump trains that's two ways I don't feel fear

I don't know trust I know a tight bond will tear

Like a good wig I can't tell you if it's real here

I'm from south london brother people getting killed here

You can make a mill'

But you can lose it if you're still here

I lost over 30 grand to family I'm still here

The word don't appeal to me

You steal from me I'm still here

Bro I wasn't made for this

I don't get a break but I'm aware of what breaking is

I wish you could take a hint as well as you can take the piss

I don't even speak to our brother man I just pray for him

It's never too late for him

Life is at it's craziness walls started caving in

All the things I've seen would turn a theist atheist

I didn't get 99 marks in english I was faking it

I got 98 'cause I don't know what a vacation is

If you saw god what would you say to him

If given the chance would you have taken it

If you could rewind time what would you change in it

Do you believe in what an angel is

Furthermore do you believe in what the devil is

Do you believe that I can illustrate what streatham is

Then break the fourth wall and base lesley on my relatives

I'm grateful for my life because I aimed for this

Every bad moment every single ****ing day of this

People looking at me that's what fame can bring

But to understand the stairs

You take steps then retrace the s**t

I tell my circle the future's ours we're shaping it

The past is just the reason I had came to this

I thank god for the pain because it made me this

I don't know if you remember those days bruv

In them days there was one night in particular bruv

Came home and for some reason man put on a beat

We were just in the front room freestyling bar for bar

I don't even know how old you was these times bruv

Probably about hmm ten ten nine

Yeah man if I think about it now

Think about the transition

Them days there you had no bars

But let's be real did anyone bruv

You know what I mean it's called context bruv

But it was mad fun bruv

But the stuff nowadays today it's proper man

You know what I mean man

Thinking man's definitely blessed to see

How the whole thing's come together

From time I think it was 'jkylhyd' man

You played man that one there

Man was thinking yo this one here is a banger bruv

I remember when I heard that one live

On the airwaves for the first time bruv we was pumping it

Man come to my door was like

Rah man that's a bit loud you know

I'm like fam that's my brudda

He was like yeah

And you know on your birthday man sent you a little card

And it begins

'Jesse made seven of his sons pass before samuel

But samuel said to him the lord has not chosen these

So he asked jesse are these all the sons you have

There is still the youngest

Jesse answered but he's tending the sheep

Samuel said send for him

We will not sit down to eat until he arrives

So he sent and had him brought in

He was ruddy

With a fine appearance and handsome features

And then the lord said rise and anoint him he's the one'

Bro you know what that means

Say no more man