Changes

Shadows swimming in my head lately I don't mind

See I'm not gonna let me go crazy not this time

I'm going through changes I'm gon' make it for sure

I'm going I'm going

I'm going through changes but I've been here before

Uh

I haven't stepped out of my house in seven days

Haven't shaved haven't showered haven't changed

Same clothes different day

Another good morning pissed away eh

Got the whole world looking right at me

Actually feels like people start to look past me

I've been around feels like this just might be our last dance

I'm frustrated I'm past tense I still don't feel like a has been

I don't but it's like a ghost town up in the studio

Nobody comes around here no more

I guess that's just how the movie go uh

I don't like playing my old friends new songs

They don't listen to rap like back when

They all grew up kinda moved on

And how can I blame 'em huh

I used to sleep eat and breathe this s**t

But now the older I get I'm questioning if I really needed this

I used to stress what people said

And what people thought about me

Now I worry about if my daughter

Can make it home from school without me

But still at the same time

As I'm writing this rhyme I'm in my kitchen

My daughter's trying to tell me about her day

I hear her but not really listening

I'm staring at her but in my head I'm putting these words together

I know that I need to do better

'Cause what I do now could change forever

Shadows swimming in my head lately I don't mind

I'm going I'm going

See I'm not gonna let me go crazy not this time

I'm going through changes I'm gon' make it for sure

Uh it's a fall from paradise

I'm going through changes but I've been here before

Uh

And I know I'm so indecisive these days

And musically I feel confused

Don't know what I'm liking these days

I'm just taking time to check all the new s**t

Plus all of the d**gs they doing

And I know I'm a hypocrite

I smoke these spliffs only 'cause Snoop did

Hah glad it was just w**d

But even with that I'm noticing I'm losing my passion

I'm getting too high it's harder to focus with

And all of my pothead friends they take pride in it pride in it

And all my alcoholic friends denying it denying it

And all my cokehead friends they still hiding it hiding it

I'm just hoping all of us survive this s**t survive this s**t

D**n I was never too good at showing emotions

I get awkward at serious times

Uncomfortable in genuine moments

I ain't big on giving hugs

I use this music to show my love

That's why it's so important

But lately it don't seem so rewarding

Something's changed

Shadows swimming in my head lately I don't mind

I know I know

See I'm not gonna let me go crazy not this time

I know I know I know

I'm going through changes I'm gon' make it for sure

Uh it's a fall from paradise

I'm going through changes but I've been here before

Uh let's go

Oooh oooh oooh

Changes

Oooh oooh oooh

Changes

They told me call it a day

They told me maybe that's it

Then I get these messages from my fans

Who tell me don't ever quit

'Cause my music saved their life

Like literally they heard my song

On the way to the train tracks

And something I said's the reason they came back

I used to convince my fans just give me a chance

But now they're the ones convincing me

Now they're the ones convincing me yeah

I used to convince the fans to believe in me and my truth

But now my fans believe in me

Maybe more than I do