Ill Mind of Hopsin 7 (Explicit)

I'll Mind Of Hopsin 7 (Explicit) - Hopsin

Yo f**k anybody I might alarm

Life is a tour I sit and ride along

Taking some notes

And then I write the song

I'm staring down the road my life has gone

Is this where I belong

Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong

My mental state is f**king me up

And I pry the problem

While asking you for some answers

But we don't have that type of bond

That my desires gone with the way

That I've been living lately

If I died right now you'd turn the fire on

Sick of this b******t niggas call me a sellout

Cause I hopped on Christianity

So strongly then I fell out

Now I'm avoiding questions like a scared dog

With his tail down

Feeling so damn humiliated

Because they looking

At me like I'm hellbound

What story should I tell now

I'll just expose the truth

I'm so close to the f**king edge

I should be close to you

But who the f**k are You

You never showed the proof

And I'm only f**king human yo

What am I supposed to do

There's way too many different religions

With vivid descriptions

Begging all f**king men

And women to listen

I can't even beat my dick

Without getting convicted

These ain't wicked decisions

I got different intentions

I been itching to get it

I've been given assistance

But the whole f**king system is twisted

Now I'm dealing with this backlash

Because Marcus isn't a Christian

And I've been told

That my sinful life is an addiction

But I can't buy it

It's just too hard to stand beside it

I need an answer and humans can't provide it

I look at the Earth and Sun

And I can tell a genius man designed it

It's truly mind blowing

I can't deny it

Is heaven real Is it fake

Is it really how I fantasize it

Where's the Holy Ghost at

How long it take Man to find it

My mind's a nonstop tape playing

And I can't rewind it

You gave me a Bible

And expect me not to analyze it

I'm frustrated and you provoked it

I'm not reading that motherf**king book

Because a human wrote it

I have a f**king brain you should know it

You gave it to me to think

To avoid every useless moment

It was a mission that I had to abort

Cause humans be lying

With such an inaccurate source

It's gon' be hard to

Put me back on the course

Next Jehovah's Witness

To come on my porch

I swear I'm slammin' the door

A lot of folks believe it though

But I'm not surprised

Humans are f**king dumb

Still thinkin' that Pac's alive

I ain't trying to take your legacy

And torch it down

I'm just saying: I ain't heard sh*t

From the horse's mouth

Just sheep always telling stories

Of older guys

Who were notarized by you

When you finally vocalized

Now I'm supposed to bow my head

And close my eyes

And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise

Sound's like a f**king Poltergeist

Show yourself and then boom it's done

Every rumor's gone

I no longer doubt this sh*t

You're the One

I'll admit that my sinful ways was stupid fun

And all my old habits can hop onto

Of a roof to plunge

I'll donate to a charity that could use the funds

F**k the club instead of b**ches I'd hang

With a group of nuns

And everyone

That I ran into would know

What I came to do

I wouldn't take a step unless

It was in the name of You

I hate the fact that I have to believe

You haven't been chatting

With me like you did Adam and Eve

And I ain't seen no f**king

Talking snake unravel from trees

With an apple to eat

That sh*t never happens to me

I don't know if you do or don't exist

It is driving me crazy

Send your condolences

This is me reaching to you so don't forget

If hell is truly your pit of fire

And I get thrown in it

I'mma probably regret the fact

That I ever wrote this sh*t

My gut feeling says it's all fake

I hate to say it but f**k it

Sh*t I done lost faith

This isn't a small phase

My perspective's all changed

My thoughts just keep picking

Sh*t apart all day

And in my mind I make perfect sense

If you aren't real

Then all my prayers aren't worth a cent

That would mean

That I could just make up

What my purpose is

And I could just sit in church

And say "f**k" in the services

Man what if Jesus was a facade

Then that would mean

The government's god

I feel like they've

Been brainwashing us with a lot

So much that we don't even notice

That we're stuck in the box

Man everything is "what if"

Why is it always "what if"

Planet Earth "what if"

The universe "what if"

My sacrifice "what if"

My afterlife "what if"

Every f**king thing

That deals with you is f**king suspect

I'm f**king done

I'm f**king done

This is my f**king life

And I'm living it I'm having fun

If you really care for me

Prove that I need to live carefully

But I'll be damned

If I put my own pleasure aside

For an afterlife that isn't even guaranteed

We are you and you're us

Stop playing games

My life's all I got

And heaven is all in my brain

And when I feel I am in hell

My ideas are what get me through pain

Do as you please

And I'll just do me

I'm a human

I'll stay in my lane

I'll mind