Always December

Snow is falling it's middle July

雪花飄落 正值七月中旬

Just another day here in my mind

不過是意識中的尋常光景

Can't escape what's inside

無法逃脫內心的糾纏

I've been running my whole damn life

我耗盡一生倉皇逃離

Years go by but the colors won't change

歲月流逝卻褪不去灰暗

Been so long since I've felt anything

麻木太久已遺忘何為情感

Feelings fading so fast

情緒如流沙般消散

Like I'm watching my own life through glass

像隔著玻璃旁觀自己的人生

No one sees but it's always December in me

無人知曉 我內心永遠是十二月

No matter where I go it's pouring rain

無論身在何處都大雨傾瀉

In my head seasons never change

腦海中四季永恆凍結

And it's killing me

這正在將我毀滅

No one sees but it's always December in me

無人知曉 我內心永遠是十二月

Tried so hard to be brave

竭力偽裝勇敢

But the reasons this life is worth living

那些值得活下去的理由

Get hard to remember

逐漸變得模糊難辨

When it's always December

當永夜沒有終點

Black and white only colors I see

黑白是視野僅存的顏色

Sunless sky somehow stuck on repeat

陰鬱天空陷入無限循環

But I hold it all down

但我將一切深藏

Don't want anyone to feel this but me

不願他人體會這種絕望

I'm only free from it when I'm asleep

唯有沉睡時能暫時逃亡

The more I think the more I feel myself sink

越是思考越是深陷泥潭

Back to this empty place

墜回這片虛無荒原

It's a nightmare I could never explain (never explain)

這是永遠無法描述的夢魘

No one sees but it's always December in me

無人知曉 我內心永遠是十二月

No matter where I go it's pouring rain

無論身在何處都大雨傾瀉

In my head seasons never change

腦海中四季永恆凍結

And it's killing me

這正在將我毀滅

No one sees but it's always December in me

無人知曉 我內心永遠是十二月

Tried so hard to be brave

竭力偽裝勇敢

But the reasons this life is worth living

那些值得活下去的理由

Get hard to remember

逐漸變得模糊難辨

Can't outrun the cold

逃不出刺骨嚴寒

When it's in my head

當寒冷源於心間

In my head

在意識深淵

It's been getting old

這煎熬日益陳腐

Wishing I was dead

寧願生命終結

I was dead

徹底湮滅

As this overcast suffocates me

當陰雲扼住我的呼吸

I'm done waiting on some sign of spring

不再等待春天的蹤跡

I would rather lay here in my bed

寧願蜷縮在床榻之間

Than have to face what lives here in my head

也不願直面腦海中的夢魘

Hell just being awake

清醒即是地獄

Hurts much more than I could ever explain

這種痛苦遠超出我能描述的語言

No one sees but it's always December in me

無人知曉 我內心永遠是十二月

No matter where I go it's pouring rain

無論身在何處都大雨傾瀉

In my head seasons never change

腦海中四季永恆凍結

And it's killing me

這正在將我毀滅

No one sees but it's always December in me

無人知曉 我內心永遠是十二月

Tried so hard to be brave

竭力偽裝勇敢

But the reasons this life is worth living

那些值得活下去的理由

Get hard to remember

逐漸變得模糊難辨

When it's always December

當永夜沒有終點