Dear Old Friend (Explicit)

Scared for my life

I'm breathing and keeping thoughts away

Well it's a shame I'm too afraid to fall asleep

It's insane how far we'll go and what we'll do to keep them from pain

It's my life it's my time it's my code I live by

I'll just keep telling myself that it's right and I'm fine

Wash away my sins

I'm trapped in this hole again

I can see you and me on a slate that was clean

I pushed my limits now you think I'm like the pigs in the street

I could hardly spent a minute in reality

Getting help was like a vision I was fathoming

I was weak you would all speak

And try to save me but I was taken like a tragedy

Wash away my sins

I'm trapped in this hole again

It's sickening to see

You know this act isn't me

I'm trapped in this hole again

I fall asleep to escape all the guilt and all the pain

Pillowcases soaked in blood

I smoked away my f**king lungs

And if it hurts you just to face me

And if you're trying to erase me

Know ill be waiting for the next time

And ill be praying that you take my life

Wash away my sins

I'm trapped in this hole again

It's sickening to see

You know this act isn't me

I'm trapped in this hole again

The less you care the less it hurts

You can mask it or you can take your own f**king life

I can see you and me on a slate that was clean

I pushed my limits now you think I'm like the pigs in the street

I could hardly spend a minute in reality

Getting help is like a vision I was fathoming

I was weak you would all speak

And try to save me but I was taken like a tragedy

I've been taken like a tragedy