The Devil That's Inside (Explicit)

The Devil That's Inside (Explicit) - ANTH/Jared Krumm

Lyrics by：Anthony Melo/Corey Nyell

Composed by：Anthony Melo/Corey Nyell

My momma said a man's not supposed to cry

But she don't know the pain I hide

I pray to God like every night

But no he don't reply

My father said he's proud 'cause I'm doing well

But all this money just don't help

It's only me myself and I

Yeah

And the devil that's inside

I walk around this surface

Broken looking for purpose

How am I worth more than a million

And still feel so worthless

They watch my life observe it

Think that it's picture perfect

But they don't know the ******* struggles that I had to work with

Grew up in a broken home

My mattress always on the floor

Eating ramen every night

Evictions always on the door

My momma told me pack my bags

"I'm sorry son we gotta go"

Just because you plant the seed

It doesn't mean that it will grow

So please don't ever think my life was better than yours

I hate when people say I don't know what it's like to be poor

'Cause yeah I made a lot of money but I still need more

'Cause I can tell that happiness is something I can't afford

And that is life

My momma said a man's not supposed to cry

But she don't know the pain I hide

I pray to God like every night

But no he don't reply

My father said he's proud 'cause I'm doing well

But all this money just don't help

It's only me myself and I

Myself and I

And the devil that's inside

Yeah

So many things I ain't understand until I got older

Like why the hell does my father always sleep on the sofa

And why does momma keep crying and sobbing on my shoulder

Those are the memories as a child I can't get over

It's been five years since I've said a word to my older brother

And yeah we share the same blood but that doesn't mean I love ya

I'll never forgive ya for all the **** you put me under

Our father's a fool with you he should've just used a rubber

A trauma no one knows

The scars I never show

The voices in my ******* head they won't leave me alone

I guess it's true when they say people can change

'Cause ever since my sister Fresia died I ain't been the same

But that's my life

My momma said a man's not supposed to cry

But she don't know the pain I hide

I pray to God like every night

But no he don't reply

My father said he's proud 'cause I'm doing well

But all this money just don't help

It's only me myself and I

And the devil that's inside