You'll Only End up Joining Them (Live)

You'll Only End up Joining Them (Live) - Kevin Devine

Tonight I'm posed and popping like a peacock

Pressing flesh smiling big spinning head sings

Stop just stop

Cause what used to calm me down

Just rips my life to ribbons now

So I keep smiling I find my window and quick cut out

These days my hangman's hunger makes my gut kick

My sleeping mind could map it blind

A flask a key a bag a fifth

I try to will myself away

While shouting habits plead their case

So when the sun sears through my eyes

My beggar's brain can't compromise

I splash cold water I draw the curtains I stay inside

And I can't say that it's a sickness more like a stranger I ask in

And later realize was a strangler

Slipping nooses in my den

But I was lonely so I asked him

Would you tie that one on me

It wasn't his fault I was eager and I was weak

So as I inch towards resolution

Yea I'm not sure which life feels right

A narrow noose or the wading water

The hanging head sore open eyes

My brother he went one way

And at the fork I heard him say

Don't you follow don't go making my mistakes

And I realized what he meant

Don't kill yourself to raise the dead

It never works you'll only end up joining them

It never works you'll only end up joining them