There's Alot Going On

There's Alot Going On - Vic Mensa

Written by：Victor Mensah/Alex "Papi Beatz" Baez/Darian Garcia/Kevin Rhomberg/Carter Lang/Peter CottonTale

Yeah this just my life

Front to back top to bottom

Everything's changing around me

These days don't feel the same

We all lost faith and lost family

Why must we play this game

Lord have mercy on me

I've been a sinning man

Pull out my wings jump off the bridge and crash in a plane

If I never land

Know I never die

We live forever in my mind

And I sanctify

We live forever still that life

There's a lot going on but I stick to the ones I love

I never claimed to be a perfect man but name a great man who was

Consequences of my actions in the past years had me stressing out

It was like may I just moved to l a

I was tryna figure it out

Medication for depression that I cut cold turkey had the kid manic

In an episode out in hollywood wilding out like nick cannon

Railing adderall pills out a dollar bill on the bathroom floor

Clean the whole mess up with my nose

What the f**k I need a vacuum for

New york city on my birthday june 6 th 2014

I had that first meeting with hov plus I brought out the whole team

I drank that whole bottle of d'usse ty ty gave me that night

When we left the club after rap genius house me

And shorty got into a fight

She came out the room swingin' hit me in the jaw

I was really tryna fend her off

But I ended up in the closet with my hands around her neck

I was tripping dawg

Too proud to apologize or empathize I blamed it all on her

Saying that she hit me first even though she was the one hurt

I was really just reflecting all the hurt

That I was feeling from the band's rejection

When kids these days split that sh*t felt like a c-section

And my infidelity and jealousy with natalie on top of the amphetamines

And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face down in the chesapeake

The next month I dropped down on my luck and had europe going nuts

But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time I was going through too much

Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the table for my records

In ibiza eating paella on the roof tryna choose over breakfast

Hov wasn't with the bidding war but I knew the roc just felt right

When I saw kanye at wireless without t-pain still a good life

Felt so close when mr hudson introduced me to him backstage

He prolly don't even remember that sh*t like a b**ch off backpage

But at that stage

I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage

At the same time I was winding down a low point in my addict phase

The adderall started wearing off and I went into a deep writer's block

All over a song that I couldn't finish

That I wrote about signin' to the roc

Isn't that ironic I was feeling so psychotic

With the whole world excited for me and my idol saying I got it

Sh*t got bad out in l a

So I moved back home to my mom's basement

Linked up with smoko and papi beatz and took it back to basics

Then I wrote rage that was me screaming out through the pain

And u mad addressing my relationship with natalie it was too bad

The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my mental health

I did acid in the studio one day and almost killed myself

As I started to fall apart certain stars started to align

Oh mys came to chicago in january at the perfect time

He said kanye was working on an album

And uzi played him one of our songs

He was tryna fly me out ni**a it was goin' down like the dow jones

Pulled up to westlake first day I was there I recorded wolves

I knew I was the one like neo meeting with the oracle

But I had to get a handle 'fore the door was pulled

Crawled out on snl

All the niggas hating on me back home lookin' at me like fml

A lot of people coming out the wood like let's work tryna network

All the pressure making my head hurt the molly wouldn't let the meds work

At this time it's like feb 1 st to the 15 th

And I'm still addicted

Frustrated writing sh*t for ye tryna visualize someone else's vision

Then he laid that verse on u mad and we made the sh*t the single

Ye and hov getting into it over me tryna do a joint venture

And good music still fam but it's that roc boy savemoney life

Took the bus out on the road for the traffic tour did a hundred nights

Cleaned out my closet I got rid of all of my demons

If you learn one thing from my journey ni**a it's don't stop believing

When this sh*t got so suffocating I could barely even keep breathing

Wrote my wrongs all in this song now

I'd like to welcome y'all to my season

Ni**a I'm gone

Know I never die

We live forever in my mind

And I sanctify

We live forever still that life