It's Been Awhile (Explicit)

and it's been awhile

since l could hold

my head up high

and it's been awhile

since l first saw you

and it's been awhile

since l could stand on

my own two feet again

and it's been awhile

since l could call you

and everything l can't remember

as fucked up as it all may seem

the consequences that l've rendered

l've stretched myself beyond my means

and it's been awhile

since l can say that

l wasn't addicted

and it's been awhile

since l can say

l love myself as well

and it's been awhile

since l've gone and fucked things

up just like l always do

and it's been awhile

but all that s**t seems to disappear

when l'm with you

and everything l can't remember

as fucked up as it all may seem

the cousequences that l've rendered

l've gone and fucked things up again

why must l feel this way

just make this go away

just one more peaceful day

and it's been awhile

since l could look at myself straight

and it's been awhile

since l said l'm sorry

and it's been awhile

since l've seen the way

the candles light your face

and it's been awhile

but I can still remember

just the way you taste

and everything l can't remember

as fucker up as it all may seem

to be l know it's me

l cannot blame this on my father

he did the best he could for me

and it's been awhile

since l could hold my head up high

and it's been awhile

since l said l'm sorry