Fuck Up (feat. Askim Soul Children)

**** Up (feat. Askim Soul Children) - Sirius

Sunk so deep you won't believe

I can't proceed with this over me

I know what you think when you say my name

Talk about me like oh he changed

Another d**e is up his nose

And I don't know if I can trust him

And the smell of alcohol is too much for me to go hug him

And it's hard to take hard to watch hard to look away

But it's worst to be in the middle of this sh*t

Try to make up why to stay

So I underestimate people lie to myself

But I'm easy to see trough

Used to be so proud but take a look at these eyes

Take a look at me now

Everybody got a problem with me

But then again no one said life's easy

Now I gotta watch where I put my feet

Some don't even want to look at me

Every now and then I think back

If I took another choice where will I be at

Momma said I'm proud of you

And my dad want to help me guide me through

And I do want to change

But I keep coming back to the same old same

Snort a line while I write a rime about quitting sh*t for a better life

What the f**k is that where's the discipline

This thing to bring out the b**ch in me

And did I make this song for the sympathy

I don't now what it is but I'm sick of it

Look into my nephew's eyes I see myself back when

I didn't care about nothing I'll rather be alone for now

Figure out how to bring myself back down on the ground

Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine

And I was supposed to be scared of heights like what happened

I guess we changed some for the better some for the worse

I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts

It's dark tonight I miss the sunlight

I miss saying things like thanks I'm alright

When you ask me how I'm feeling well I'm happy when I'm dreaming

It's a whole other world in my head

When I close my eyes in my bed

Cause I make up places and people replace myself if I need to

Three little birds on my doorstep

I see what it means when I go there

So peaceful so quiet all alone but self reliant

I came to the point when I put the mic down and said I'm done

And with a life like this

You might just feel like putting steel on your tongue

Look into my nephew's eyes I see myself back when

I didn't care about nothing I'll rather be alone for now

Figure out how to bring myself back down on the ground

Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine

And I was supposed to be scared of heights like what happened

I guess we changed some for the better some for the worse

I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts

They gotta kill me to make us meet again

Cause I'm never giving up I ain't leaving yes

It's not for me no more it's for all of us

I see you when I see you I love you all

Love you all

Love you all

Love you all

Cause now I am flying higher than I ever could imagine

And I was supposed to be scared of heights like what happened

I guess we changed some for the better some for the worse

I'm stuck somewhere between and it hurts