Fathers Day (Explicit)

I'm sittin in the room with a knife in my hand

With a plan all night to take the life of a man

A soul with a dark heart and the devil in his eyes

Provider and father figure high level of disguise

He had the neighborhood fooled with his fatherly act

They didn't know how he left us in a poverty trap

Didn't know his angry fist went across mommies face

Or his two timing ways left my mother a disgrace

No one knew how he put fear into his family

His temper angered rage was d**n near insanity

Tragically it came to this

It's ether him or the blade cut across my vein that

Would drain my wrist

Tonight and end to all the pain and fear

And the csi is left clueless and my name is clear

Too many unanswered prayers and I lost faith rapidly

Scream to the sky why did god turn his back on me

2x's

I killed a man on fathers day god forbid me

I sent a man on his way god forgive me

Lord have mercy on my soul when the hurts beyond control

The demons in my mind are gonna haunt me till I'm cold

Do you know what it's like to have fear sit in the pit of ya stomach

With severe punishment as if he loved it

My heart races as I grab the knife tighter

And pray for the strength that I can make his life expire

I'm tense and on the edge and my strife is dire

And to protect myself I live my life as a liar

It was all those f**kin' beatings that gave me lies

And he thought that beatingme up would make me wise

And I got smacked if I stood brave

He'd puff w**d in my face screamin' behave and get good grades

The wounds reflected through the mirror in the bathroom

And I could'nt connect with anyone sittin' in the classroom

You f**ked me up bad man and you chuckle like you glad

Smile across ya face but I'll have the last laugh

It's your 1st born with a heart full of enmity

Holdin the shank razor sharp kill the enemy

2x's

I killed a man on fathers day god forbid me

I sent a man on his way god forgive me

Lord have mercy on my soul when the hurts beyond control

The demons in my mind are gonna haunt me till I'm cold

3rd

My anger's getting the best of me

While the devil posses the rest of me

My little brother's an accessory

I've been robbed of my childhood and self esteem

A life limited by a selfish feind

Manipulated my mind and said mother was worthless

When he's home from work I'm not glad I'm nervous

It's fear of that unknown momment

When his anger can snap and he can no longer

Control it or hold it vengence is mine despite what sayeth the lord

It's the end of the line and I smite and slay with a sword

The kitchen knife spits his life on to the bedroom floor

His twitchin life slips and then no more

It's finally finished I found freedom in the form of a fallen demon

Sit and explore a reason

Ya had a chance to redeem ya self and it got away

And I laugh at you bleedin f**ker happy fathers day

2x's

I killed a man on fathers day god forbid me

I sent a man on his way god forgive me

Lord have mercy on my soul when the hurts beyond

Control the demons in my mind are gonna haunt me till I'm cold