Like a River (feat. Elijah James) (Explicit)

Like a River(feat. Elijah James) (Explicit) - Joyner Lucas/Elijah James/Gary Lucas

Composed by：Gary Lucas

In sweet dreams I kid myself

Have your love for good

I really had hoped you'd stay

But like the river you just come and go

And these things they comfort me

When my mind's on you

And I feel you comfort me

But like the river it just comes and goes

I used to think that you was

Superman when I was younger yeah

Findin' comfort in your voice

When I was down and under

Put you on a pedestal and now

I kinda wonder if that made sense

'Cause I'm convinced you showed a lot of colors yeah

All them nights I was alone

I hid inside the covers

Used to argue with my moms whenever

I was stubborn facts

I never warmed up to the idea

Of a step-dad because he wasn't you

And you and him ain't even like each other word

Used to bring me 'round your

Girlfriends as I recall

I thought one or two was cool

But I ain't like 'em all

'Cause all you ever did was argue

'Bout who's right or wrong

And you ain't have no job

So you would sit at home and light a bong yeah

Used to crave for your attention

But I never got it

And everything you said we'd

Do is just another promise

You had dreams of bein' famous and I never doubted

But I started rhymin' to impress you

If we bein' honest facts

But we can have some bondin' time and maybe pow-wow

A fatherson relationship that we can smile 'bout

At time's you got abusive and I had to bow down

Or keep on makin' music

To try and compete with bow wow

Your father died when you was young

I think that made a scar

I started thinkin' maybe that's

Why you the way you are nah

End of the day no excuse

For how you played your part

Told myself when I became a father

I'ma raise the bar word

We had a lot of fallin' outs and didn't talk for years

And all them birthdays

And holidays got awfully weird

You threw me in a foster

Home and I was brought to tears

Livin' with some strangers feelin' anxious

I was lost and scared yeah

And now I'm starin' at the river tryna get across

And all I see is apparitions of what never was

And everything I used to wish for is dead and lost

And if I never see your a*s again I'll be better off

I'll be better off yeah

You are so negative uh

And you say you know

But you know a godd**n thing

Like the river you just run and go

You say you could do good

And better you know

But you tried no godd**n thing

Like the river I'ma run from you

I told myself I wouldn't write a song

But f**k it I did

Oftentimes I sit and wonder if it's somethin' I did

Or maybe I was immature

But is it somethin' I said

I can't help but feel the feelin'

That there's somethin' I missed

I told you somethin' happened

To me and you ain't protect me yeah

You tried to say you ain't believe

Me as you disrespect me facts

And plus you never had my back

In fact you may resent me in a way

'Cause everythin' I say

You try to use against me word

And I never knew your other kids

But I knew of 'em true

I'm not really sure if I like

'Em but I do love 'em do

S**t I don't even think you

Knew but just a few of 'em

'Cause all your baby mothers

Stayed away to keep you from 'em word

You probably out fillin' they

Heads with s**t that's not the truth

You probably told 'em that

I switched up when I got some loot uh

You probably told 'em that

I'm greedy and I'm not so cool

That I worship the devil and

I sold my soul to cop a pool yeah

I worked my a*s off to get rich

Let's not confuse

I sacrificed my whole twenties

Just so I can move true

While everybody else was chillin'

Hangin' out with crews

I was writin' a plan to finally

Win while tryin' not to lose true

I still remember signin' my deal

And you got hella funny

And at that time you probably

Figured I had hella money yeah

But I only got a small advance

So I ain't even get a chance to hold you down

'Cause then you started gettin' jealous of me

But I'm worth a couple million now

I turned out fine yeah

I copped my moms a big crib and went and got mine

An indoor pool with a house

Made and I'm not lyin' nope

A happy son who loves his dad

It's about time yeah

But I'm still starin' at the river tryna get across

And all I see is apparitions of what never was

And everything I used to wish for is dead and lost

And if I never see your a*s

Again then I'll be better off

N***a I'll be better off

Karma comes back and it's co-co-comin'

Co-co-comin'

Treatin' me bad and I'm ru-ru-runnin'

Ru-ru-runnin'

Karma comes back and it's co-co-comin'

Co-co-comin'

Treatin' me bad I'm ru-ru-runnin'

Ru-ru-runnin'

And congratulations n***a you won

And all the love you never

Gave me I can give to my son

Eternal love to my child we'll forever be one

Thanks to you I know the

Man that I would never become

Never become