Better Than I Used to Be

Better Than I Used to Be - Citizen Soldier

Lyrics by：Jake Segura/Kile Odell/Juan Rivero

Composed by：Jake Segura/Kile Odell/Juan Rivero

Produced by：Kile Odell

Used to sink with all the anchors

Of the problems I catastrophized

Used to drown in in the riptide

Of perfections thoughts in black and white

Patience don't come easily

My best friend was apathy

Living blind means anxiously

'Cause when I slow down I can see

I've still got mountains

To climb on my way out of bed

I've still got oceans

To cross inside of my own head

But I'm not losing sleep

'Cause I'm a little bit better than I used to be

Used to hide in in the deep blue

Of deprecation I romanticized

Used to swim from from the shoreline

Of the good things I would minimize

I would minimize

Patience don't come easily

And growth is perfect's enemy

And healing ain't a guarantee but

When I slow down I can see

I've still got mountains

To climb on my way out of bed

I've still got oceans

To cross inside of my own head

But I'm not losing sleep

'Cause I'm a little bit better than I used to be

I've still got demons

That drag me down and want me dead

A million reasons to fall apart

But I ain't stressed

'Cause I've bought room to breathe

'Cause I'm a little bit better than I used to be

I was trying to see the bright side with a blindfold on

Taking orders from my thoughts as if they're never wrong

Was avoiding all resistance wishing I was strong

So when I wanna be the martyr I'm gonna try a little harder

I found comfort in distortions that I sold myself

'Cause nothing hurts if you believe you're too far gone for help

But if I'm growing that's enough I wish the old me well

'Cause when I wanna be the martyr I'm gonna try a little harder

I've still got mountains

To climb on my way out of bed

I've still got oceans

To cross inside of my own head

But I'm not losing sleep

I'm a little bit better than I used to be

I've still got demons

That drag me down and want me dead

A million reasons to fall apart

But I ain't stressed

Yeah that's alright with me

I'm a little bit better than I used to be