Phantom Penpal Lyrics
Phantom Penpal - twisted
I've been writing to a long distance lover
This commitment exceeds
That of any of the other relationships
I've forged outta physical connection
Self quarantine every evening at eleven
I've been writing to a phantom pen pal
It's love she never questions any lies I tell
Nestled in the confidence of words in text
She dwarfs my friends and they're reduced into nothingness
All my best ideas ring out and fall upon absent ears
The weight of my emotions rests
On the shoulders of a phantom penpal
The penpal fights the battles that my letters narrate
She takes the form of any lover that my hand could create
She plays out all the schemes that I only contemplate
I see them manifest on the white of the page
But they never translate into positive change
Oh the hopelessness of motionless objects of faith
I've been finding consolation in solitude
Embracing routine and ritual
For all the sh*t I never get to say
The pencil rests an arms length away