Trying

Trying - Russ

Lyrics by：Russell Vitale

Composed by：Russell Vitale

Produced by：Russ/Jake Jepson/Kiri Gerbs

Yeah

My younger self loved gettin' drunk but he misunderstood it

He made his livin' handle anything his heart just couldn't

I started lookin' for myself my compass constantly would spin

A smart man looks around a wise man looks within yeah

I'm diggin' deeper I'm tryna just stop suppressin' ****

You give somebody money once they might just start expectin' it

Then resentment builds after that first time you refuse

But givers need to set boundaries 'cause takers never do

I swear I'm tryin'

I swear I'm tryin'

I think that's all I can do

There's no denyin'

There's no denyin'

That old habits keep slippin' through

And I know that I won't

I won't

Ever have it all figured out oh no Oh no

That's not gon' stop me from tryin' tryin'

Yeah tryin'

Yeah

I'm navigatin' internal chaos don't get a day off

Sometimes I feel dead inside self talks feel like seance

Prayin' for the strength to investigate not ignore

I gotta stop bangin' on walls hopin' they turn into a door

I'm feelin' torn though

My comfort zone is now a warzone

Ashamed of my own sadness I feel betrayed by my own hormones

I'm chasin' congruency I'm cravin' community

Told my girl I love you but my life can't just be you and me

I swear I'm tryin'

I swear I'm tryin'

I think that's all I can do

There's no denyin'

There's no denyin'

That old habits keep slippin' through

And I know that I won't

I won't

Ever have it all figured out oh no

Oh no

That's not gon' stop me from tryin'

Yeah tryin'

Yeah tryin'

Yeah

I got a problem with enablin' my family is disassembling

Scared to face my demons but when I do it makes my angel sing

Stress 'cause it's the season of celebratin' and grievin'

The graves poppin' out like Liam Neeson

How long will they be open to receive my message I'm thirty-two now

If you are in the genre that I'm in you'd worry too now

My family all relies on me

I got a fear of bein' seen but for their sake

Please keep your eyes on me

Yeah

I swear I'm tryin'

I swear I'm tryin'

I think that's all I can do

There's no denyin'

There's no denyin'

That old habits keep slippin' through

And I know that I won't

I won't

Ever have it all figured out oh no

Oh no

That's not gon' stop me from tryin' tryin' tryin'