How Should I Feel (feat. Meg & Dia) (Explicit)

How Should I Feel(feat. Meg & Dia) (Explicit) - Witt Lowry/Meg & Dia

Lyrics by：Dan Haynes/Mark Richard Jr./Dia Frampton/Meg Frampton

Composed by：Dan Haynes/Mark Richard Jr./Dia Frampton/Meg Frampton

Monster how should I feel

Creatures lie here

Looking through the windows

Monster there are voices

In the darkness

And they say they won't go yeah

Stare long enough at the abyss and

It seems to start to stare back at you

Lost inside my head

Is a scary place I've adapted to

Friends and family call and

I tell 'em that I'll get back to you

Too busy on my phone doomscrollin'

Spent the afternoon

Stressed out head down

Can barely leave my bed now

I hate these f**kin' feelin's

They tell me to try these meds out

But doc we've only talked for like ten minutes I'm sketched out

Paranoid can't tell if these people are foes or friends now

You know what it feels like to feel like nobody can help

On top of that feel like you're losing yourself

I wouldn't even wish my enemies the hand I was dealt

Thought I could pay the pain

To fade with some material wealth

But tears fallin' in the tesla

I guess it's kind of ironic

To feel so f**king broke

Inside somethin' I always wanted

My demons came to play

It feels like my brain may be haunted

Hate myself sometimes as

Much as they hate on me to be honest

I saw fentanyl take the life away from my cousin

I watched alcohol steal the life away from my dad

I came from nothing

Now I'm scared that might be what I'm becomin'

Look in the mirror

Barely recognize the one lookin' back so

Monster how should I feel

Creatures lie here

Looking through the windows

Monster there are voices

In the darkness

And they say they won't go

Wrote a song when my dad

Passed and they said it was trash

That made me wish that I put

Less of myself into every track

I know you can't just burn the

Orchard when one apple is bad

But the fact of the matter is that

I feel I'm startin' to crack

And they say don't take it to heart

Well how the f**k do I not

When I put my soul inside somethin'

And they say it's a flop

Constantly tear my art apart

When this is all that I got

They wanna see me on a

Stage or me left in a grave to rot

I've been overstressin' 'bout overstressin'

I lie in bed and think about this life I manifested

Yet my depression's always

Yellin' that I'm destined for regression

Sad obsession with progression

Still they think that I'm just desperate for attention

Broke down about around this time just last fall

At therapy tellin' my therapist I feel so small

Pushed everyone I love away

And f**k it's all my fault

Is it better to feel like this

Or to feel nothin' at all

I turn the lights down lonely

Remember back when we would

Cash in cans at the grocery

Weren't there when I was drowning

But the first to say you know me

So sick of people saying that

They care and never show me

My grandpa once told me that inside

An empty mind is where the devil likes to play

And everyday it's all the same

I just stare at an empty page

Ruminate about all the things

That have piled up on my plate

Time I take control of my brain

Know I can't just pray this away so

Monster how should I feel

Creatures lie here

Looking through the windows

Monster there are voices

In the darkness

And they say they won't go

Through the windows

Monster there are voices

In the darkness

And they say they won't go