ฟังเพลงMy 1st Time

My 1st Time - Dark Lotus

The first time I didn't even feel guilty

Never washed off stayed bloody and filthy

Just laid there next to the kid all night

Kind of soaking it all in and feeling alright

I wasn't even old enough to drive yet it was hell

I had to put him on my handlebars and dump him down a well

I try to feed off of that until I couldn't anymore

By my sixteenth birthday my total had grown to four

I ain't afraid of you but be afraid of me

Cause when the lights go down there ain't no stopping me

Memories of my first real killing

They found her all tied up just hanging from the ceiling

What I was feeling was just so dark and twisted

I couldn't believe I just did this

Now I'm stuck in my very own private Hell

Will I ever do it again Time will tell

My first time

I was in control until the blood

It was my first time

The bloody mess I had to clean up

It was my first time

I know this ain't right

It was my first time

I finally took someone else's life

Every time I lay my a** down to sleep

I pray to f**k these memories seize

Bloody face and final breaths taken

But the first uh what was I thinking

Just a piece of rope and a pair of hands

I wasn't mad but she kept talking man

Suffocation due to not breathing

I choked her for the very first time for no reason

It was eleven on my clock I remember that much

In the graveyard waiting for the d**e man to show up

Ten minuets pasts and there's still no sign

Just then off in the night I see some headlights

A car rolls by driving slow and I don't know

I thought it was my folk I ain't pulled the 44

They stopped the ride started blasting

The fist time I didn't pull the heat

Damn this what happened

My first time

I was in control until the blood

It was my first time

The bloody mess I had to clean up

It was my first time

I know this ain't right

It was my first time

I finally took someone else's life

First time my knife touched skin

And the red blood started flowing so quick I just couldn't quit

Kept stabbing until everything that I seen was red

The pillow the blankets the walls and even the bed

One color dominating everything like contemporary art

Am I the killer or artist with bloody heart

Then I curled into a ball in the corner of the room

Feeling like a creep in the light of the moon

If I took this gun and put a hole in your chest

It won't compare to the first time I put someone to rest

Kind of like a dream but on a nightmare level

Every time I think about it I can still hear the shovel

Diggin deep into the dirt to try to hide the pain

Knowing I got away with something I'll regret in the end

I really shouldn't have never done it

But f**k it I did him in

The first person that I killed was my first best friend

My first time

I was in control until the blood

It was my first time

The bloody mess I had to clean up

It was my first time

I know this ain't right

It was my first time

I finally took someone else's life

Someone else's life

Someone else's life first

Someone else's life

Someone else's life first

Someone else's life

Someone else's life first

Someone else's life

Someone else's life first

Someone else's life