Illusion

Dealing with the ghost inside my head

Before the silence disillusion me

There's no place left to go

Still wasting my time

Filled up the big black hole inside of me

With the arrows and knives on my back

I've changed and there's no turning back

Invigorated then another setback

Refined torn to the skin and bones

Everytime I get up on my feet

I'm afraid I'll be trapped forever in the cage

Like ocean it consumes

Within seconds I'll be dragged to the bottom of it

Taking chances the obstinacy of me

Just can't see the bigger picture of it

Like ocean it varies

Somedays tamed others I felt nothing

I only wish that I can

No I should just make up my mind

The demon lives inside my head

When it's up in the air but out of my hands

There'll be nothing left if my love is meaningless

Dealing with the ghost inside my head

Before the silence disillusion me

I've seen my end

Made by bad decisions

A little by little

Ripping the memories from my mind

Constantly spinning

I'm afraid I start losing it

I can't mend

Can't make peace with it

Please forbid I quit

The demon lives inside

When it's up in the air but out of my hands

There'll be nothing left if my love is meaningless

Dealing with the ghost inside my head

Before the silence disillusion me

The cure of self-destruction

The path of my redemption

Every breath I take might just be a mistake

A mistake

Curved in the bones with the silence in my head