The Toll It Takes

There's a sentence they gave me

Then one that remains unchanging

Like skin that's burnt by frost

It'll peel if I pull away

It hurts to hold or let go

As I'm trying to sustain

Like feeling hunger pangs and eating bone to stay alive

It tears me apart inside but it seems like the better way to get by

Like a broken hourglass they fell

Cutting sand through my fingers down the deepest well

I know the toll it takes

But I won't let you go

The past I can't replace

Is all that you'll ever know

There is no turning back

I can't fix what I broke

The past I can't replace

Is all that you'll ever know

You're a part of me that I may never be able to repair

Like a lung that's collapsed

I'll always know that you're still there

Always surrounding my heart

Even if it rejects air

I know the toll it takes

But I won't let you go

The past I can't replace

Is all that you'll ever know

There is no turning back

I can't fix what I broke

The past I can't replace

Is all that you'll ever know

The true sentence I still face

Is one I brought upon myself

Lost in a dark cell

They said it's easiest to just numb yourself and let go

But these open wounds will forever feel fresh

And I refuse to let them close yet

I know the toll it takes

But I won't let you go

The past I can't replace

Is all that you'll ever know

There is no turning back

I can't fix what I broke

The past I can't replace

Is all that you'll ever know

I know the toll it takes

But I won't let you go