So It Seems

Oh so it seems

That I hold it all with ease

Doesn’t mean it ain’t heavy

Behind these eyes it ain’t

What it seems

Oh so it seems

Oooo

I hold it all with ease

But behind these eyes are my fears

They don’t ask to say I’m okay

I just say so it seems

Behind doors tearing up

Consistently sewing seams

This ain’t got a chorus G

This one here is one for me

I’ve had thoughts I can’t repeat

This is me at war with me

This is why I can’t retreat

Lost my nan last week

Never had a chance to speak

People trying to give me grief

So I ain’t had a chance to grieve

Too much relies on me

Inside I’m still learning

But outside’s a masterpiece

Even if I part with you

You are still a part of me

Instead of trying to start on me

Why not make a start with me

I know the sayings well

I’m calm with karma G

Temptation don’t phase me

I know how the dark can be

Thirty second stroll with me

Have you in your thoughts for weeks

I’ve had all the battles but

No-one’s ever fought for me

I learn from the scars I’ve got

Nothing was taught to me

So how can you say I’m okay

If you don’t talk to me

Oh so it seems

That I hold it all with ease

Doesn’t mean it ain’t heavy (oooh)

Behind these eyes it ain’t (but behind)

What it seems

Oh so it seems

That I hold it all with ease (hold it all with ease)

Doesn’t mean it ain’t heavy, (HEAVY)

But behind these eyes it ain’t (what is seems)

Sitting here thinking ‘bout

Things no-one thinks about

Like how am I really doing

You don’t know the ins and outs

Life is so different now

You ask me different how

Never got to say goodbye

Really wish I did it now

Hooked on this rollercoaster

When will someone fish me out

Instead of trying to solve problems

We keep pushing things around

I think I understand

Ain’t just ‘cause I’ve been around

It’s ‘cause I’ve been the one laughing

And I’ve also been the clown

Happy, yeah so it seems

Everyone is loving me

Lots to keep me company

Money and the company

But the saddest part of this

Is not the people judging me

Or the label bumping me

I tell you what ****s with me

It’s because no matter what

We focus on the bad things

Even when it’s outweighed by the good

That’s what’s bugging me

You ain’t heard enough of me

‘Cause I don’t show enough of me

I wish I had more time

I wish there was another me

Oh so it seems

Oh Oh Oh

I hold it all with ease

Behind these eyes are my fears

I hear you calling me

And I’m coming back to you

You said you’d never leave

So I’m coming back to you