Awaiting My Death

Windows of shattered dreams

Laid out before me

My broken reflection hauntingly stares back

As once again I pick up the pieces of my mind

Rebuilding myself again

And I know what is done

The smaller pieces lost

They used to be large

But now they are gone

I cannot find my hope my joy or my life

Just empty splinters embedded in my mind

Causing me pain I grimace in awe at the overwhelming pain

Caused by what I've lost by what has been destroyed

My scars start to bleed

From my wounds of sorrow

I watch the blood run

A release of my self-hate

And still the blood flows

Scarred all over my body

With each scar comes a memory of pain

Though it's hard to tell now they all look the same

Awaiting the day when my blood is no more

Maybe then the pain will be gone

I await my death with both relief and with fear

I sense that my shattered mind knows it is near