Hate Me

Hate Me - Justin Furstenfeld

I have to block out thoughts of you

So I don't lose my head

They crawl in like a cockroach

Leaving babies in my bed

Dropping through reels of tape

To remind me that I'm alone

Playing movies in my head

That make a porno feel like home

Theres a burning in my pride

A nervous bleeding in my brain

An ounce of peace

Is all I want

For you

Will you never call again

And never say that you loved me

Just to put it in my face

And never try to reach me

It is I that wanted space

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me

So you can

Finally see

What's good

For you

I know I'm sober now

For three whole months

It's one accomplishment

That you helped me with

The one thing that always tore us apart

Is the one thing

I won't touch again

In my sick way I want to thank you

For holding my head up late at night

While I was busy waging wars on myself

You were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted

My warped opinions

On things like suicidal hate

You made me compliment myself

When it was way

Too hard to take

So I'll drive

So far away

That I never cross your mind

And do whatever it takes in your heart

To leave me behind me

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all

The things

I didn't do

For you

Hate me in ways

You know ways

Hard

To swallow

You gotta hate me so you

You can finally

See what's good

For you

And with a sad heart

I said bye

To you and wave

Kicking shadows on the street

For every mistake

That I made

And like a baby boy

I never knew how to be a man

Until I saw your blue eyes cry

And I held your face in my hand

And then I fell down yelling

Make it go away

Could you please

Make me go smile

Make it shine

Like it used to be

And that's when she whispered

How can you

And it's insult

For you

Oooh row

Hate me for all the things

I didn't do

For you

Hate me in ways

You know the ways

Hard

To swallow

You gotta hate me so you

You can finally

You can see

What's good

For you

For you

'Cause you don't

Understand

This is all

For you