1983

1983 - Xzibit

I had the right to sublurr because they ache one stick

I saw five to six million but yo that ain't really sh*t

It was supposed to be different we were supposed to write out

But tumach shot his girl then shot himself in the mouth

Then the steady game form very soon fell apart

'Cause when you just doing all the loyalty in your heart

Slight catch a long hymn on all these niggas forgetting where they're coming from

And they're slowing down wait a minute what we're running from

This what we're supposed to do here's where we're supposed to be

I hated MTV for trying to play me like a mockery

But that don't bother me I just fulfill my f**king contract

Small price to pay just to take a piece of my back

My back backfire assassination of my character

Just demassing me in the America

My younger sister Erika just adopted a child

My older brother served fifteen he made it out

Even though my father loved me I ain't seen him for a while

Had to fight my baby b**ch give me my ni**a now

'Cause I'm running out of time and I need him to understand

The way a superior man had build a brand

Niggas talk about my taxes had to pay I consemn

I'm surviving 'cause the lines a** crooked in the hand

Heartbreak disappointment my mother died when I was nine I just wanted to join her

Now I miss to join her get to California I got something for you to do it was like I was annoying

Resurrected found my purpose I remember being dragged being nervous when I would kick my verses

I was virtually worthless my whole life was a circus

I was sleeping with serpents and I thought it is worth it

Got a call from Paul told me sh*t isn't working

Exchange words told me tell me that sh*t in person

He probably told him and by the way did he said it on a prolijetic twisted made about him

I see Slim and he said he didn't recognize me

Was it that or did he let another man to find me

I don't know but now I gotta get this all behind me

Follow my calling when I used to follow niggas blindly

I wish I had a better relationship with my uncles

Blood relatives I could turn to when I'm feeling trouble

And talk about my struggles

My uncle John Nail he only put me on the phone with different females

And this is such a such nephew tell me what's up

Ain't even ask about your man in Cali growing up

F**k I drink it all and I smash the bottle

Self medicated numb but I'm a feel it tomorrow

It feel like pain and sorrow was like a second skin

But now that pain was gone I got my second win

Only the strong live long you better settle in

I'm fighting for ever I will never let the devil win

1983 that's when my journey begins

I searched every word for stritting only find it within

This for me and my kid still trying to live

Living life to the fullest 'till I see you again