Tiny Angel (Explicit)

Tiny Angel (Explicit) - 360

Written by：Matt Colwell/Jon Reichardt

So this story is about a really close friend of mine

I love you brother

My mates talk sh*t about their wives but I love mine

Yeah we fight sometimes but ain't that just life

She's been pregnant now for some time it took us years

And enough tries I thought it wouldn't happen from my young life

From the drunk times or when I tried *** twice

I thought downstairs had gone and messed it up right

The doctor told me that I need to stop stressing

The only thing that's working against us is just time

That was true two months by

My wife called me up while I was working at the pub right

She told me I was gonna be a daddy

We both broke down she said there's something that I done right

I called my mother told her I was gonna be a father

Mum cried so did I I was tongue tied

I can't explain this feeling but I love life

I've never had a purpose and this had just become mine

To create this little person that's fun size

A little bit of her and a little bit of me

But I pray he gets his mum's eyes

I say he cause I've always wanted a son right

The ultrasound said it's a boy my little ray of sunshine

It dawned on me I can't wait to see my son rise

You know what they say about time though It does fly

Fast forward nine months and suddenly it's crunch time

It's been a few days of going through contractions

Gotta stopwatch timing every moment that it happens

We reached five minutes so it's hospital time

I call ahead to see the doctors arrive my wife's laughing

Now I properly drive like the cops are behind

But there was barely any traffic so we got there in time

I'm a little scared but she aingt got a worry in sight

She's a warrior exactly what you want in a wife

It's been several days of epic pain every day she wakes up

Finally she's coming to that second stage of labour

I sit next to her squeeze on her hand

Put a sponge up on her head and say Breathe if you can

I love you so much baby you're so strong

I could never do this but you so easily can

She said the pain is insane like her abdomen's ruptured

Like someone's got a knife and they're stabbing her stomach

She's like

We have to do something the nurse said

It's natural

Relax it's just a sign that it's actually coming

She's like No it's too much it's too hard to get out

I'm saying any words I think will help at calming her down

Doctor's like

You're nearly through the worst part of it now

Take a look and see my little king is starting to crown

They all telling her to push and she's screaming

She's saying that it hurts I tell her to keep breathing

It's like push is the only word that they've said now

Then I'm shocked by the massive scream she lets out

The doctor's like

Yes now the head's out

And then I watch as he quickly pulling the rest out

It's so amazing to see my son in the flesh

I can't help but notice he hasn't taken a breath now

They put a little plastic thing in his mouth

While the doctor's two fingers are slightly pumping his chest down

I start panicking something's gone wrong

They push me to the side I can barely see what's going on

He's not breathing they need to resuscitate him

He's suffocating I see that it's something major I feel

So helpless I wish I could come and save him

I pray that my son'll make it it's taking em f**king ages

Everyone's in shock I'm just listening in

Holding my breath wishing I could give it to him f**k

At twenty minutes now they're stopping

They turn around they say

We've lost him

I'm in shock I can't talk

I'm staring at the ground I can't walk

They hand him to us can't believe the size of him

The most beautiful thing I've ever seen but there's no life in him

My wife's crying like

Why aren't they reviving him

I said

They tried for twenty minutes she's like Try again

Now I'm feeling like I'm stuck in hell

This is the worst pain I've f**king felt

I've been ten years clean but now

I'm drunk and on the *** as well

I'm doing anything to numb myself but nothing helps

I believed in God for that I feel dumb as hell

Can someone please tell God to go and f**k himself

I'm sorry yo it's hard to be faithful

It's painful heaven must be running out of angels

He died from asphyxiation no air in his lungs

A parent should never have to bury their son

Especially one that's so precious it has barely begun

That's one thing in life that should never be done

I prayed for a son and they blessed me with one

My biggest gift now his presence is up

And I'm crying at the thought he won't ever feel a hug

Or the tenderness of love that he'd be getting from his mum

Sent him from above but why take him

It's like I'm being punished for the negative I've done

And it's killing me that Christmas time is barely in a month

So I'm doing what I have to do to spend it with my son

Where did you go

Are you alone

How did you get there

I need you at home

Where did you go

Are you alone

How did you get there

I need you at home

I need you at home